Showing posts with label Self Doubt. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Self Doubt. Show all posts

Tuesday, January 6, 2015

What Are Your Creative Routines?



I started painting again yesterday after a period creative dryness. I always feel the same when I start a new painting. I suppose because a blank canvas or whatever the surface can feel daunting, and you can be filled with thoughts of doubt and fear of not being able to create anything that 'measures up' to the standard, preset by that inner critic. I have learned to ignore that voice, and push on through until I start feeling like the work is starting to make sense visually even though I haven't come near to the completing the work.

It felt great to get back at it and today I reached that point where I began to visualize the next steps. When I first embark on a work I can't see much of anything and I don't much like what I do see. A preliminary drawing always helps me immeasurably work out the psycho-babbling kinks, and get my groove on.

Not all individuals who create art have this initial doubt and fear at the beginning of creating an art work I am fairly certain. It doesn't last very long for me, just a passing thoughts that comes and go. I acknowledge these thoughts, then release them as soon as they appear. I suspect if I painted everyday these thoughts would lessen. And so I am reconfiguring my inconsistent painting habits to an everyday routine. I am more creative than I give myself credit I know, but there is always room for improving creative habits, and that's what I aim to do.
This project will be a series 22 egg tempera paintings. My time bound goal for completion is May or June.

What are your creative routines?

Here is something interesting; the creative routines of creative individuals throughout history


Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Sun

Oh the sun is out today and the temperatures are on the rise!
I don't want to talk weather but it sure helps when the temps are up and the sun is out!
Today I get my submissions in the mail for my art grants. I have this feeling of trepidation only because I really need to get these in today and I am concerned, when's the other shoe going to drop, bordering on paranoia for some reason...with no real rational foundation. It speaks of my neurosis I guess, as moments of a self-doubting artist. Or maybe it's just the lack of confidence in Canada Post! I won't get into that!

Not much to say, just putting my best foot forward today for the tasks at hand. Oh to be my cat curled up on the chair for the afternoon. Or my friend cosied up by the fire in her jammers!

Kindest regards - Catherine