I am reminded of the many John Bradshaw books I read many years ago, when I was at the beginnings of my own self-discovery. These books discuss impaired family relationships and how they affect us. It's as if there existed a dysfunctional relationship antenna, where with closed eyes, walking into a room of two hundred people, finds the most dysfunctional person, to have a relationship ship with, among the group. It also makes me think of the book, Women Who Love Too Much, and all the other written material surrounding this topic.
There is much more I could say about this relating to my own experience without getting into psychobabble however I'd rather just post my new painting, entitled, Blue Beard. That said, I will add, thank goodness for 12 Step Recovery.
This fifth painting in my series, I feel is quite successful for me. I consciously worked at my coloured ink under painting, more so than the previous pieces. My layered application of the egg tempera was a concerted effort to involve myself with the painting process. I think this is a rather vague attempt to describe my process this time but what I am trying to say is I am learning more as I go.