Just Continue to Create and Out of This Comes More Creativity

I didn't get one bit of drawing or painting done yesterday. I just concentrated on getting those letters out to the Herald and the Ombudsman and got my dishes washed. I did finish the rest of the chapter in my book Woman That Run With The Wolves, about Manawee and so I am completely ready to start my painting. I have no more excuses. 

I have done three paintings in four days, so I am not going to be too hard on myself. I think in the back and even in the forefront of my mind, I am always trying to push myself with my painting. I have learned that it is important to just continue to create. Out of this comes more creativity. I've struggled over the years with discipline in different areas of life. I always associated it with being forced to do something I didn't want to do, and if I didn't want to do it, I wasn't going to do it.  No body was going to make me do something I didn't want to do, not even myself! I was stubborn, pig headed and out of control, now I'm just stubborn, as hard as that is to admit.

Over the years of hard lessons learned, I came to realize being an artist means you must have discipline, not necessarily because you have to, but because you want to, and through discipline comes freedom. I never equated or related discipline and freedom with one another, but I certainly do now. It's a fabulous feeling of freedom when I am painting, and especially when I complete a painting, and am satisfied with the outcome. I think I am addicted to this feeling. There are far worse addictions I know being in recovery myself for 17 years, and for this I am grateful.